Dealing with Disappointment

Today I found out that I was dropped from my favorite class this semester. I had been praying soooo hard to get this class, and my heart sunk as soon as I realized it was true. It's funny how you always hear these stories of how God did amazing things and people got all that they had hoped for and everything worked out in the end. Rarely do you hear a story of an individual saying that they lost the big game even though they prayed soooo hard or that they failed a class despite their fervent talks with God on the subject.

So I'd like to be among the unusual, as is normal for me. I was really hoping for this class. I did all the assignment on time, made sure to arrive to class early, sat in a seat that allowed me a good view of the board to take notes, etc. Then, I checked my status on the wait list online.... dropped. I was so disappointed. I loooove math lol. Yeah, yeah, typical Asian I know... Anyway, so I found out that I was no longer in it, and first, I just sat there in shock. God hasn't said no to me in a while, really. It was an awakening that not everything I want is in His will. No duh, yeah I know.

The weird thing about it all was that I wasn't upset, mad, or angry. It was like I had a simple peace about it mingled with some sadness and crushed hope. Perhaps the lesson of the day is that, in order to have peace and understanding of situations we go through we must put total trust in God, and He will say yes or no and give us happiness either way. There is also the less religious-sounding version: hope for the best and prepare for the worst - which just happens to be my personal motto. :)

I guess I just have a lot of faith lately, and I'm not really all that sure why. Perhaps, I'm growing more mature and learning to take life as it comes, with all the happy moments as well as the moments that it punches me in the gut.... Everyone has to find their place in their lives: who they want to be, how they want to be perceived, who they want to have in their lives, what they want to leave behind as a legacy. Hmmmm... legacies. A new topic to write on??