In the Final Hours

I find it strangely calming at this moment to look toward the future with my thoughts on the past, seeing all I have been through and all that I want to achieve, in one place, in one mindset... peace.

I have been sitting here reflecting on what has been and what I have been through in my short lifetime, and I was looking back wondering just how much I have changed through the years.  I remember myself as an energetic child with a longing for fun and adventure all the time.  I could never fall asleep fast, and I never wanted to be left out of anything that I saw as suggesting a good time. :)  As I started to get older and enter the late "kid" years and started to get into tween city, I remember realizing how horribly I dressed, haha.  I actually made sure that I matched my clothes from then on, and I began to discover my love for the understanding of people, though I didn't know that yet.

From my tween years and my first taste of puppy love, I was jolted out of my "perfect" life into a life with a single parent, a lonely life with no friends (being home-schooled for a while really didn't get me many friends), and a much-needed new beginning.  I learned the most about myself in the quiet hours when life settled into a slow routine, when I didn't understand quite why life had changed so much.  I wasn't unhappy, just wondered, what now?

Public school changed me the most.  My friends became my life :)  I love those guys more than life itself.  I was uplifted, brought down to size, learned to love, learned how to be a teenager (haha yeah pretty sad), and I found life to be so sweet, especially when I learned just how much helping others made me happy.  Yeah, I went through some rocky times, but I also had some of the best days of my life there... all in all, my life has been all that I ever could have wanted it to be, and more.  God has really blessed me.  I just hope that I can take those blessings (and love) and share them with all the people I meet and all the lives I touch.

I just want to say thanx to all of those people who have touched my life in some way or another and have left their fingerprints in the person that I have become today.  You guys are incredible, and I could never ask for a better circle of family and friends to accompany me through all of my life's little wanderings.  Love you guys!!